Merlyyy

I never changed, you were just to be busy to see the real me. you never understood. the people who understood KNOW that i didn’t change. you changed. We changed because you changed. You never meant what you said, you just said it to say it. We were never meant to be… REALLY?? your life sucks??? what about me? the people closest to me are leaving. You are the chain on my ankle. I’m drowning because of you. its both of our faults, because you attacked me as soon as i let my guard down. WE ARE THE OPPOSITES THAT NEVER HAD, NEVER CAN, AND NEVER WILL ATTRACT

They are your problems, not mine!!! im tired of your problems, your voice, your complaints. You always expect me to help , but i cant!!! i have problems too!! let me ask you for help, please! im dying here, but i put on that fake smile for you and for everyone. I feel like the problem solver, so why cant i solve any of my own problems? there’s a soul inside of me yearning to come out but it cant because just as im opening up to you, you have another problem whether it be a boy, family, or school. but no matter what, my soul cant survive because you force it back down my throat once again, and i let you do this because i care an  i want you to know that i will always be there for you. the thing is you will NEVER understand, so

JUST FORGET IT…

My friends always let me be me, but what they don’t realize is that sometimes i wanna be alone. It that moment where you wanna be alone but you cant because people don’t understand. When I’m loud people tell me to be quiet and when I’m quiet, people ask me whats wrong. like really? you’re gonna do this now? And you can think about all the bad i have ever done to you. it doesn’t matter. i don’t care what you think of me, i just need my own space and you don’t need to know why. i don’t care who i hurt saying this but your too old acting like this. I understand people cry and act immature, but your not acting!!! i always act like a 3 year old, but I’M ACTING!!!  immaturity has been your lifestyle. you never know when to stop. Your judgmental aggressive, and lots of people have noticed. I know i have flaws too and i know I’m not perfect, but i try. you always say you’re gonna fix it but you never do. I love you to death but you gotta know that life won’t always go your way so just man up now. Nobody wants to hear you whine right now but they deal with it cause they love. Maybe the person your with  right now is not the person you’re meant to be with. I’m sorry if this hurts but its the truth and if you cared then you would listen instead of defending. You would love instead of hate. You would change because its affecting the people around you.